Four Just Feels Right

{maternity dresses c/o Pink Blush}

Surprise! That’s basically exactly how I felt, the day that I sent Max off to Kindergarten and we discovered the big news. That morning, I breathed a sigh of relief and immediately thought, “I’ve totally got this now.” After having three kids at home with me for the last (almost) year and half, having two at home felt like it should be significantly easier. Then later that day I was struck with an overwhelmingly nauseous feeling, and it dawned on me to look at a calendar. Yup, I was in fact 3 days late, and the test that I (immediately) ran out to buy, confirmed it… we were expecting again! Maybe I didn’t have it all under control anymore, but I was ridiculously excited. We had always said that we wanted a big family, and I knew for certain that I was not yet done having babies, but this pregnancy still felt like a really big surprise to me.

So, here we are, 13 weeks in, and along with that excited feeling, I am thankfully starting to feel like myself again. This has been my toughest first trimester to date. I have been more sick, and more exhausted this time around then I was in any of my previous pregnancies. For awhile there, I’m pretty sure that I didn’t consume anything but carbs, because they were the only thing that I could tolerate, and when I wasn’t eating them, I was busy trying not to throw up. For weeks I was in bed, and asleep, before 7:00… but in all honesty, I could have gone at 3:00. I have felt like a total zombie, and I’m pretty sure that I looked like one too… but I think that’s finally starting to turn around. Last week I actually felt motivated enough to head back to the gym, and the other day, I was even craving a salad.

With all of that being said, I can’t tell you guys how truly blessed I am feeling right now. A call from my doctor earlier this week revealed the results of our genetic testing, which all came back normal, and confirmed that we are expecting another little girl. I was literally brought to tears when I heard the news. I had been incredibly anxious, and hearing the good news was a huge relief for me. We had just told the kids last week that they would be getting a new sibling, and although Max and Theo both expressed that they were hoping for a sister, and Ella adamantly stated that she wanted a brother, she was elated when I told her that we were having a girl. She has asked me no less than thirty times when her baby sister will be getting here, and even asked if Postman Pat would be delivering the baby. I am so thrilled for her to have a sister, I am thrilled for all of my kids.

As of right now, my due date is slated for very early May. Both Ella and Theo are April babies, and if this baby decides to come early, her and Ella may have birthdays very close together. I can’t even begin to talk about how happy I am over the fact that Ella’s super cute baby clothes are going to get the chance to be worn again, and I’d be lying if I said that I didn’t instantly get online to order some new teeny tiny girl clothes for our new little bundle. The big question now is, will this baby have as much hair as Ella did at birth?

It feels so good to finally be able to share this news with our family, our friends, and all of you. I am not good at hiding things, and I’m even worse at hiding the fact that I have felt like walking death for the last several weeks. I can’t wait to share the journey of this fourth pregnancy with you guys. As always, thank you for your continued support, for helping me turn my hobby into a job that helps to provide for our family, and continues to allow me to be at home with my babies. If there is one thing in my life I have always been certain of, it’s that I wanted to be a mom, and all of my hopes and dreams for that have without a doubt come true.